Monday:
As usual I didn't want to get out of bed this morning and as it was school holidays I had hopes of a sleep-in; but alas. Aiden came in for a cuddle, which was nice although actually I would have rather continued sleeping; but also to hassle me about my iPhone, which wasn't so nice. He loves to play a little game called Tiny Monsters and I am fine for him to do so with my supervision, but I like playing it too and in the past I have found that he has spent my carefully horded in-game money or started an 18 hour hibernation on a monster I needed or similar disaster. So he is allowed to play it only when I am up (during, of course, his carefully regulated "screen time" for the day). The kids are allowed to turn on the TV and/or computers at 7.30am on weekends and holidays, we don't encourage them to get up before then. And not at all on school days, of course, until late afternoon.
Anyway, so Aiden spent the next hour asking me when I was going to get up while I tried to snuggle down and ignore the little voice. He wasn't interested in TV or computer games or his Nintendo DS; only my iPhone! Eventually I dragged myself up, but carefully without any hint of "giving in" to nagging.
We did both the grocery shopping and some clothes shopping. I got myself three new sports bras to replace my old saggy-elastic ones, some kids clothes, and new school shoes for Aiden. He'd only had the others for six months but he'd been complaining they pinch his toes. I had him fitted for new ones, which he seemed happy with. I commented that they looked a bit smaller than the sneakers he was wearing, but the assistant said they were just a more compact shoe. Got them home, and they are exactly the same as his previous school shoes! Same brand and size. So I'm going to take them back, unworn. Either Aiden was wrong about them being too small or the salesman was wrong about them fitting him. Either way, he doesn't need a pair identical to his other ones.
We rushed home for a late lunch. I made lazy nachos, which was a bad choice under the circumstances, ie just before exercise. Lazy nachos is corn chips with salsa and melted cheese. Delicious, but stodgy and with little nutritional value. I chivvied the kids into a change of clothes and off to the gym. Actually, I was unable to convince Jasmine to change out of her heavy tracksuit pants, but at least I got her into a T-shirt. I knew she would be too hot, but clothes and shoes have always been a bit of an issue. Her choices have little regard for suitability or temperature, and everything has to be too small and too tight. She was much worse at 4; at 8 I can often talk her into a better choice. Well, sometimes.
To continue my ramble, I left the kids with the Gecko leader and got onto the treadmill. Belly full of cheese and corn chips. No energy. Sluggish. Tired calves. Sore feet. Even walking was an effort. I made a brief attempt at riding a bike then went back to the treadmill, eventually clocking up a measley 40 mins. I went and watched the end of the kids' class. They finished with some tug-of war competitions. After pitching the children against each other in teams, the instructor put them all on one end of the rope and took the other. With one arm, and very little effort, he dragged them over the line (after giving them a chance to try, of course). Very unusually for me, I jumped up and grabbed the end of the kids end of the rope and tried, with their help, to give him a bit of competition. I think he had to flex a muscle or two, but basically it wasn't that much harder for him. Unfair. Still, it's about the only thing I felt good about during that visit to the gym -- I took on something non-compulsory and just gave it a go. Normally I would just sit there on my behind and watch other people. Nice work.
Monday, July 9, 2012
Saturday, July 7, 2012
Walking
Sunday:
I've been working on trying to get a bit of exercise in every day in spite of Tim not being here to babysit and the freezing weather. Yesterday the kids & I walked to a semi-distant park and I did a couple of laps of the oval, including a bit of jogging, before sitting to play with my iPhone. Today we again waited until after lunch, the warmest part of the day, and went to a closer park. The kids played their new game where they are characters in the computer game SIMS, controlled by someone else who makes them go on the swings and the see-saw etc. I walked laps of the park and up & down the path which is on a slight hill. Both days I did about 40 mins brisk walking with a little jogging yesterday.
I've been feeling much more relaxed about my eating since I decided to leave Weight Watchers. I had been eating junk foods a bit frantically "because I will be good tomorrow" -- a bad mindset to be in. Now I can have a couple of chocolate biscuits instead of the whole packet, because I have no plans to deprive myself tomorrow.
Tim is rarely away overnight and I didn't like it at all. But he is on his way home.
I've been working on trying to get a bit of exercise in every day in spite of Tim not being here to babysit and the freezing weather. Yesterday the kids & I walked to a semi-distant park and I did a couple of laps of the oval, including a bit of jogging, before sitting to play with my iPhone. Today we again waited until after lunch, the warmest part of the day, and went to a closer park. The kids played their new game where they are characters in the computer game SIMS, controlled by someone else who makes them go on the swings and the see-saw etc. I walked laps of the park and up & down the path which is on a slight hill. Both days I did about 40 mins brisk walking with a little jogging yesterday.
I've been feeling much more relaxed about my eating since I decided to leave Weight Watchers. I had been eating junk foods a bit frantically "because I will be good tomorrow" -- a bad mindset to be in. Now I can have a couple of chocolate biscuits instead of the whole packet, because I have no plans to deprive myself tomorrow.
Tim is rarely away overnight and I didn't like it at all. But he is on his way home.
Friday, July 6, 2012
Quitting Weight Watchers
Saturday:
I have been on the Weight Watchers program for five months now, and I wrote a post two months ago saying that I was going to stick with it even though my weight loss was so slow - slow is better than nothing, right? Well over the past week I have been rethinking that decision, and this morning I cancelled my membership.
My lowest weight was nearly two months ago, with a cumulative loss of 3.4 kg. A loss of around a kg a month was slow but still enough to keep me paying the $69 a month. But since then my weight has bounced up and down with no significant loss. This week, after some very indulgent eating, my weight went back up 2.1 kg (4.6 pounds) in 5 days. My total cumulative weight loss over five months with WW is now 1.2 kg.
I'm not blaming WW, I'm sure it works for many. I am the one who makes every decision about what I put in my mouth and how much I exercise. But clearly it is not helping me. It has not inspired me enough to lose weight.
So what is next? Well, I joined the gym last week and I am going to focus on exercise for a while. I need to improve my body fitness. Twice this week I have woken with a very sore upper back, I don't know why, and today I can hardly move my arms without wincing because it pulls on my back muscles. Obviously they are so out of shape that even turning over in my sleep can strain them. I want to feel healthier and sleep better. I don't want to wallow in junk food (like I did this week) but I do want to relax about what I can and can't eat.
All my weigh-ins will now be at home. Today I was 78 kg. I touched 75 kg twice in May and I still want to get back down to that as a first step. Maybe I should stop weighing myself every day. Dunno. But my plan is to exercise a lot. It is school holdiays now and very cold outside but I'll be dragging the kids along to the gym, creche when Gecko isn't on. Can't this weekend as I don't have the car, but hopefully it will warm up enough for us to go to the park and run around this afternoon. Maybe I can lose some weight without feeling deprived and miserable. And a failure.
Arg, I am still clearly focused on my weight. I need some NSVs (non-scale victories). Want to get fit.
I have been on the Weight Watchers program for five months now, and I wrote a post two months ago saying that I was going to stick with it even though my weight loss was so slow - slow is better than nothing, right? Well over the past week I have been rethinking that decision, and this morning I cancelled my membership.
My lowest weight was nearly two months ago, with a cumulative loss of 3.4 kg. A loss of around a kg a month was slow but still enough to keep me paying the $69 a month. But since then my weight has bounced up and down with no significant loss. This week, after some very indulgent eating, my weight went back up 2.1 kg (4.6 pounds) in 5 days. My total cumulative weight loss over five months with WW is now 1.2 kg.
I'm not blaming WW, I'm sure it works for many. I am the one who makes every decision about what I put in my mouth and how much I exercise. But clearly it is not helping me. It has not inspired me enough to lose weight.
So what is next? Well, I joined the gym last week and I am going to focus on exercise for a while. I need to improve my body fitness. Twice this week I have woken with a very sore upper back, I don't know why, and today I can hardly move my arms without wincing because it pulls on my back muscles. Obviously they are so out of shape that even turning over in my sleep can strain them. I want to feel healthier and sleep better. I don't want to wallow in junk food (like I did this week) but I do want to relax about what I can and can't eat.
All my weigh-ins will now be at home. Today I was 78 kg. I touched 75 kg twice in May and I still want to get back down to that as a first step. Maybe I should stop weighing myself every day. Dunno. But my plan is to exercise a lot. It is school holdiays now and very cold outside but I'll be dragging the kids along to the gym, creche when Gecko isn't on. Can't this weekend as I don't have the car, but hopefully it will warm up enough for us to go to the park and run around this afternoon. Maybe I can lose some weight without feeling deprived and miserable. And a failure.
Arg, I am still clearly focused on my weight. I need some NSVs (non-scale victories). Want to get fit.
Last day of term
Friday:
Yet again, I didn't make it to my Weight Watchers meeting. My excuse was that I didn't have time for breakfast this morning (I was making popcorn for the kids to take to a last-day-of-term party) so I had to have it after walking them to school and then I didn't want to rush eating ... but the other reason was that I have put on about 1 kg this week and didn't want to make it official. Coward.
I did 30 mins on the treadmill yesterday while the kids were doing Gecko but I didn't manage to run this time. It was a bit of a struggle to even walk at a decently brisk pace on a slight incline. Sigh. But I'll just keep at it and get my fitness back. Gecko has two long sessions a week during the school holidays so I will still get to go to the gym.
I was feeling a bit down today, maybe about the weekend. I had been a bit resistant to us going away but eventually got my head around it and we got it all organised. Then mum called yesterday to say she had been/still was really sick, probably with the same flu I had. So she can't take the kids for the weekend. Tim has committed to helping his brother so he is going to go alone while I stay home with the kids. Everyone else is busy and the things I was going to do weren't kid-friendly and we didn't have accomodation for them so it is just easier to stay home. But it means I miss out on some stuff and also don't get to see my husband all weekend and that is usually practically the only time I do see him. And I'm a bit worried about mum with no-one to look after her. But I'm sure she'll rest better without me & the kids there.
Yet again, I didn't make it to my Weight Watchers meeting. My excuse was that I didn't have time for breakfast this morning (I was making popcorn for the kids to take to a last-day-of-term party) so I had to have it after walking them to school and then I didn't want to rush eating ... but the other reason was that I have put on about 1 kg this week and didn't want to make it official. Coward.
I did 30 mins on the treadmill yesterday while the kids were doing Gecko but I didn't manage to run this time. It was a bit of a struggle to even walk at a decently brisk pace on a slight incline. Sigh. But I'll just keep at it and get my fitness back. Gecko has two long sessions a week during the school holidays so I will still get to go to the gym.
I was feeling a bit down today, maybe about the weekend. I had been a bit resistant to us going away but eventually got my head around it and we got it all organised. Then mum called yesterday to say she had been/still was really sick, probably with the same flu I had. So she can't take the kids for the weekend. Tim has committed to helping his brother so he is going to go alone while I stay home with the kids. Everyone else is busy and the things I was going to do weren't kid-friendly and we didn't have accomodation for them so it is just easier to stay home. But it means I miss out on some stuff and also don't get to see my husband all weekend and that is usually practically the only time I do see him. And I'm a bit worried about mum with no-one to look after her. But I'm sure she'll rest better without me & the kids there.
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
Aftermath
Wednesday:
So I ate a lot on my birthday, no regrets, but that night around 10 pm I suddenly got horrible abdominal cramps and spent an unpleasant time on the toilet. I was up at 3 am and then again at 4 am with the same thing, and felt rather delicate all the next morning. So maybe my body wasn't so happy with all that rich fatty food!
What with also being woken by my son at 6 am, I was pretty tired all yesterday. I honestly think I've had about one good night's sleep in the past three weeks. Then last night Tim was blowing his nose all night as he has caught the nasty germs going round. Horrible for him, I am not minimising that (and he had the same problems with me keeping him awake when I was sick), but also fairly unpleasant for me as it was yet another badly broken night. This morning I am wrecked. I am barely functioning.
As an example of my lack of mental function today, when I went to make some toast for breakfast the toaster was a bit far back on the bench. So, even though I had just seen my daughter use it (she must have pushed it back) and indeed had been waiting my turn, I grabbed it and pulled it towards me by HOOKING TWO FINGERS INSIDE THE TOASTER. Ow. I got away with just the tip of one finger burnt on the hot metal. Luckily I didn't touch the actual element inside. Clearly, I was not thinking at all at that moment.
So much I should be doing today, but I just want to sleep. And eat.
Didn't go to Zumba yesterday or Pump this morning, so I still haven't done a class at the gym, but I will do another session on the treadmill this afternoon while the kids are at Gecko.
We had a cool summer and a cold autumn, and now we are having a freezing winter (for Australia); it is well below freezing at night and was still -3C when I was walking the kids to school today. I am worried because it is their athletics carnival today. The school oval is just a swathe of grass with some goal posts, so they walk to a nearby oval that has lanes marked for races and a sandy long-jump pit. It has no shelter or benches or anything like that, apparently the school puts down some mats in house colours for them to sit on. They certainly couldn't sit on the grass, it was covered in frost this morning and will be sopping wet. Aiden, in kindy, will only be there for two hours in the middle of the day so that might not be so bad, but Jasmine will be there all day. Freezing. I made sure she took a little blanket and gloves and beanie, but it will still be pretty unpleasant.
So I ate a lot on my birthday, no regrets, but that night around 10 pm I suddenly got horrible abdominal cramps and spent an unpleasant time on the toilet. I was up at 3 am and then again at 4 am with the same thing, and felt rather delicate all the next morning. So maybe my body wasn't so happy with all that rich fatty food!
What with also being woken by my son at 6 am, I was pretty tired all yesterday. I honestly think I've had about one good night's sleep in the past three weeks. Then last night Tim was blowing his nose all night as he has caught the nasty germs going round. Horrible for him, I am not minimising that (and he had the same problems with me keeping him awake when I was sick), but also fairly unpleasant for me as it was yet another badly broken night. This morning I am wrecked. I am barely functioning.
As an example of my lack of mental function today, when I went to make some toast for breakfast the toaster was a bit far back on the bench. So, even though I had just seen my daughter use it (she must have pushed it back) and indeed had been waiting my turn, I grabbed it and pulled it towards me by HOOKING TWO FINGERS INSIDE THE TOASTER. Ow. I got away with just the tip of one finger burnt on the hot metal. Luckily I didn't touch the actual element inside. Clearly, I was not thinking at all at that moment.
So much I should be doing today, but I just want to sleep. And eat.
Didn't go to Zumba yesterday or Pump this morning, so I still haven't done a class at the gym, but I will do another session on the treadmill this afternoon while the kids are at Gecko.
We had a cool summer and a cold autumn, and now we are having a freezing winter (for Australia); it is well below freezing at night and was still -3C when I was walking the kids to school today. I am worried because it is their athletics carnival today. The school oval is just a swathe of grass with some goal posts, so they walk to a nearby oval that has lanes marked for races and a sandy long-jump pit. It has no shelter or benches or anything like that, apparently the school puts down some mats in house colours for them to sit on. They certainly couldn't sit on the grass, it was covered in frost this morning and will be sopping wet. Aiden, in kindy, will only be there for two hours in the middle of the day so that might not be so bad, but Jasmine will be there all day. Freezing. I made sure she took a little blanket and gloves and beanie, but it will still be pretty unpleasant.
Monday, July 2, 2012
Birthday!
I had a really lovely day today, if not a particularly healthy one. It started with presents in bed then croissants for breakfast. After taking the kids to school (I walked!) I went to the movies. There was a bit of a mix-up there, I had seen ads for a movie about Snow White -- a comedy with Julia Roberts as the evil queen. So I saw "Snow White and the Huntsman", which turned out to be a completely different movie, with Kirsten Stewart (Bella from Twilight) as Snow White and Charlize Theron as the evil queen. Why are there two movies about Snow White on at the same time? This one was gloomy and serious and not very good. Charlize Theron's acting mainly consisted of shouting, no-one has ever claimed Kirsten Stewart can act, the plot was silly, and the editorial work on the movie was terrible. I enjoyed what I could and let the rest go. Aparently the one I actually wanted to see was called "Mirror Mirror." Oh well.
I wandered around the shops a bit and bought myself a lip balm from the Body Shop then met Tim for lunch at our favourite Chinese. We had a table booked and arrived at almost the same time but were shown to different tables with one table between us. Luckily Tim noticed me before too long. We had some lovely chocolates from Koko Black for dessert then I dropped him back at work and went home for about half an hour before getting the kids (walked again!).
Shortly after that we headed off to the gym where the kids did their Gecko Kids session and I did half an hour on the treadmill, my first exercise in some weeks. It went well, I felt fine and did 4 "sprints". I walked at 4.5 km/h and jogged at 7.0. Of course the girl next to me was walking at 7.0 and jogging at 10.5! I'll speed up in time, but 10.5 will always be running nearly flat out for me, my legs are so short. I think I got to 11 once for about 30 seconds.
Home and started dinner, then Tim called to say he wasn't feeling well so we went and picked him up. Bummer if he has finally succumbed to my germs after holding out for a month. I finished making the crumbed lamb cutlets with broccoli in cream sauce and for dessert a chocolate raspberry mousse concoction. Mmmmm.
I am feeling rather full this evening. I used 61 PP today, more than double my allowance, and used up all my weeklies yesterday & today, plus my handful of activity PP, and I am on -5 for the week! I'll have to earn those back, and be very good for the rest of the week. Of course it is a shame to eat so much and undo the good work of the last few days, but then it was my birthday. Back on the wagon tomorrow. I've had a really good day; the food and the rest, and I am not going to spoil it with regrets. Non, je regret rien!
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Pre-birthday
Sunday:
I was very careful with my breakfast and lunch, incorporating lots of fruit and low-PP soup, so that I could splurge on my pre-birthday afternoon tea. It worked fairly well; so that although I ate quite a lot of camembert and crackers I stuck to my daily PP. Um, until you add the chocolate cake. With chocolate cream icing. A slice at afternoon tea, and then another slice for dessert after dinner ... My best guess is about 10 PP per slice, so that is 20 PP over for the day. With my actual birthday yet to come. At least I'm going to the gym tomorrow!
I am finally feeling well! Woo hoo! So nice to be healthy again, it's been a while.
I was very careful with my breakfast and lunch, incorporating lots of fruit and low-PP soup, so that I could splurge on my pre-birthday afternoon tea. It worked fairly well; so that although I ate quite a lot of camembert and crackers I stuck to my daily PP. Um, until you add the chocolate cake. With chocolate cream icing. A slice at afternoon tea, and then another slice for dessert after dinner ... My best guess is about 10 PP per slice, so that is 20 PP over for the day. With my actual birthday yet to come. At least I'm going to the gym tomorrow!
I am finally feeling well! Woo hoo! So nice to be healthy again, it's been a while.
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