Thursday
Tonight is the usual D&D evening and I bought a bag of potato chips to contribute. But I ate them. After working for an hour this morning, I ate half the bag. And two chocolate biscuits. Later, after going to the gym and doing a Step class, I ate some chicken for lunch, then the other half. And some chocolate. There are now about ten chips sitting sadly at the bottom of the bag.
I have to stop telling myself that I can't resist chips. Or chocolate. I can, and I will.
I couldn't weigh myself today because I didn't have time before the class. My stats were: 49 mins (I didn't stay for the stretches, I was feeling all tired and yuck - no wonder after all that junk); 13% in zone 0, 70% in zone 1; 17% in zone 2. I am happy with those percentages. 166 calories. Average HR 117, peak HR 131. Would be good - except in balance with the hundreds of extra empty calories I have already eaten today, before the actual supper tonight.
In A Game of Thrones (or the second book, I think), a pirate becomes a hero. They cut all the fingers off one of his hands and make him a knight. They don't weigh the bad against the good and come up with some kind of average - the bad and good are separate things to be dealt with on their own merits.
I woke up today feeling very tired and sluggish and my diet certainly hasn't improved things. I feel yuck and headachy. Need a nap.
I need to concentrate on the good. I went to the gym today, the sixth time in a week and a half. I am on schedule with my exercise. I am in control of my own life, my own actions, and what I put in my mouth. I can do this.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Food
Wednesday
Whether exercising is making me hungry, or the cold is, or I am having my usual panic about dieting; I am eating a lot more than usual at the moment. Sometimes I am hungry, but other times I am just eating anyway. I need to get that under control. I wouldn't be surprised if I gain weight this week, the way I am going. Not surprised, but unhappy.
Whether exercising is making me hungry, or the cold is, or I am having my usual panic about dieting; I am eating a lot more than usual at the moment. Sometimes I am hungry, but other times I am just eating anyway. I need to get that under control. I wouldn't be surprised if I gain weight this week, the way I am going. Not surprised, but unhappy.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Zumba
Tuesday
I did a zumba class this morning. It was fun and quite sweaty. It makes me feel quite sexy, too, as long as I am not looking into the mirror.
My stats were 1 hour 3 mins, 41% in zone 0, 42% in zone 1, 17% in zone 2. 172 calories. Average heart rate 111, peak HR 141. I must have been very close to zone 3 at times.
I am not really happy with how long I was in zone 0. The start of the warm up would have contributed, and pauses between some tracks were quite long; but the main cause would have been the last few tracks. We did 2 slow toning tracks with weights (I didn't actually use weights due to my shoulder) and then the cool-down track. I am excited about being in zone 2 for 10 minutes.
Zumba is billed as a dance class, not an exercise class. I really enjoyed it, which is important. I will be doing a variety of classes, and get my peak energy expenditure from Step classes.
The class was in the upstairs gym and I couldn't find scales there so I didn't get to weigh myself today.
I did a zumba class this morning. It was fun and quite sweaty. It makes me feel quite sexy, too, as long as I am not looking into the mirror.
My stats were 1 hour 3 mins, 41% in zone 0, 42% in zone 1, 17% in zone 2. 172 calories. Average heart rate 111, peak HR 141. I must have been very close to zone 3 at times.
I am not really happy with how long I was in zone 0. The start of the warm up would have contributed, and pauses between some tracks were quite long; but the main cause would have been the last few tracks. We did 2 slow toning tracks with weights (I didn't actually use weights due to my shoulder) and then the cool-down track. I am excited about being in zone 2 for 10 minutes.
Zumba is billed as a dance class, not an exercise class. I really enjoyed it, which is important. I will be doing a variety of classes, and get my peak energy expenditure from Step classes.
The class was in the upstairs gym and I couldn't find scales there so I didn't get to weigh myself today.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Back to work
Monday
I had a lovely orange and a kiwi fruit for breakfast, dropped off the kids at school/childcare, and flew through some editing work. The brain juices were flowing, no-one was interrupting me, the work was getting done.
Then I had some left-over beef bourguignon with mashed potato. It was yummy. But afterwards I found it much harder to think. A lighter meal at lunchtime seems to be indicated.
I had to do a little shopping with the kids after school and we bought twisties for afternoon tea. And now I feel very tired and lurgy.
This isn't really new information: the wrong food makes you sluggish. I knew that. I just don't act as if I know that.
I had a lovely orange and a kiwi fruit for breakfast, dropped off the kids at school/childcare, and flew through some editing work. The brain juices were flowing, no-one was interrupting me, the work was getting done.
Then I had some left-over beef bourguignon with mashed potato. It was yummy. But afterwards I found it much harder to think. A lighter meal at lunchtime seems to be indicated.
I had to do a little shopping with the kids after school and we bought twisties for afternoon tea. And now I feel very tired and lurgy.
This isn't really new information: the wrong food makes you sluggish. I knew that. I just don't act as if I know that.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
BBQ
Sunday
I'd had thoughts of going for a walk in the morning but it was 0 degrees C (freezing) and foggy so I didn't.
We went to a three-year-old's birthday party at lunchtime, it was a BBQ in a park. By then it was 2 degrees C (nearly freezing) with a light drizzle of rain. Lovely. I had one sausage sandwich, a few chips, a tiny muffin, one lolly snake. Quite restrained, really. Stood around in the cold and chatted to other parents standing around in the cold, all of us trying to cheer our freezing children. There was play equipment, but little playing was done. We were one of the first families to arrive, and the first to leave.
A repeat client asked me to do a couple of hours work for them this afternoon, and despite being very busy already (and it being Sunday) I said yes. It will be easy work compared to the other manuscripts I am toiling over, and it is good to keep repeat customers happy. So that will be my afternoon. Then roast beef tonight. Mmmm, hot and tasty. Still waiting for my toes to thaw.
I'd had thoughts of going for a walk in the morning but it was 0 degrees C (freezing) and foggy so I didn't.
We went to a three-year-old's birthday party at lunchtime, it was a BBQ in a park. By then it was 2 degrees C (nearly freezing) with a light drizzle of rain. Lovely. I had one sausage sandwich, a few chips, a tiny muffin, one lolly snake. Quite restrained, really. Stood around in the cold and chatted to other parents standing around in the cold, all of us trying to cheer our freezing children. There was play equipment, but little playing was done. We were one of the first families to arrive, and the first to leave.
A repeat client asked me to do a couple of hours work for them this afternoon, and despite being very busy already (and it being Sunday) I said yes. It will be easy work compared to the other manuscripts I am toiling over, and it is good to keep repeat customers happy. So that will be my afternoon. Then roast beef tonight. Mmmm, hot and tasty. Still waiting for my toes to thaw.
Recovering
Saturday
I wasn't sure if I was well enough to exercise today, I decided not to go to the Saturday Step class and delayed a morning walk to see if I felt any better later. I felt much the same in the afternoon - ok but not great - but was determined to go for a walk anyway. But then my husband decided to take the kids to the pool, which is the same building as my gym, so I ended up going there after all.
I nearly brained a personal trainer who was inexplicably crouched behind the door to the room with the scales in it, then weighed myself at 80.0 kg. Blah. Too much binge!
I got on the treadmill but it was really hard going. I struggled to get my heart rate up, and my legs started to ache. I gave up after 15 mins and switched to the bike, where at least I got to sit down. I battled on for 22 mins on the bike before my stomach was feeling so bad I stopped. I had no energy. Obviously wasn't ready to go back to exercise yet. I am still proud of myself for trying. One of my problems in the past has been to take the easy 'no' if I'm not sure I'm ready. But this time I gave it a go.
My stats were: 39 mins (that includes switching machines); 79% in zone 0; 21% in zone 1; 91 calories; average HR 101; peak HR 114.
I will just go for a walk tomorrow, devote myself to work on Monday, and do my first gym group class on Tuesday.
I started tracking calories today. CalorieKing.com allows me 1340, plus more for exercise (although it grants me a lot more calories burned than my monitor does, I need to take that into account. Today my monitor says I burned 91 cal, CalorieKing says 228 for the same time and distance! Way more than double!). I will try to keep within that.
I wasn't sure if I was well enough to exercise today, I decided not to go to the Saturday Step class and delayed a morning walk to see if I felt any better later. I felt much the same in the afternoon - ok but not great - but was determined to go for a walk anyway. But then my husband decided to take the kids to the pool, which is the same building as my gym, so I ended up going there after all.
I nearly brained a personal trainer who was inexplicably crouched behind the door to the room with the scales in it, then weighed myself at 80.0 kg. Blah. Too much binge!
I got on the treadmill but it was really hard going. I struggled to get my heart rate up, and my legs started to ache. I gave up after 15 mins and switched to the bike, where at least I got to sit down. I battled on for 22 mins on the bike before my stomach was feeling so bad I stopped. I had no energy. Obviously wasn't ready to go back to exercise yet. I am still proud of myself for trying. One of my problems in the past has been to take the easy 'no' if I'm not sure I'm ready. But this time I gave it a go.
My stats were: 39 mins (that includes switching machines); 79% in zone 0; 21% in zone 1; 91 calories; average HR 101; peak HR 114.
I will just go for a walk tomorrow, devote myself to work on Monday, and do my first gym group class on Tuesday.
I started tracking calories today. CalorieKing.com allows me 1340, plus more for exercise (although it grants me a lot more calories burned than my monitor does, I need to take that into account. Today my monitor says I burned 91 cal, CalorieKing says 228 for the same time and distance! Way more than double!). I will try to keep within that.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Binge and consequences
As usual, we had people over for supper on Thursday (last night) - we play Dungeons & Dragons. It is my binge night, unfortunately I always seem to give myself permission to stuff myself with junk.
I had spent the afternoon baking with the kids. I had bought some raspberries so we made banana raspberry muffins, some with choc-chips (the kids had a couple for afternoon tea, I didn't have any); then raspberry creme brulee, planned for dessert tonight; and with all the leftover egg whites I made lots of little meringues with cream and raspberries on top. We had some for dessert last night then the rest were my contribution to the D&D supper.
I ate one when they came out of the oven, two for dessert after dinner, and I think another three over the course of the night. I don't usually have much sugar - I'm more of a salt and fat kind of girl - and by my sixth meringue I was feeling a bit nauseated. I also had a lot of twisties. I had a cup of chamomile tea which I thought helped.
My digestive system rebelled. It has been delicate since the stomach bug picked up in China a month ago, and I had my third relapse last night. At 2.30 am I was up with stomach cramps and diarrhoea. If it follows the path of the other relapses it will last 12-24 hours. My abdomen feels bloated and crampy, and I'm amazed that there is anything left in me but apparently there is.
I stayed in bed until 10 am, the kids have been playing computer games all morning. I don't think I will be taking them anywhere today; a sad and boring end to the school holidays.
On the up side, maybe my body didn't have time to absorb all those millions of calories before my body rejected them?...
The school holidays have been full of junk food. We had fast food twice, lollies at the movies twice, biscuits at home, treats when we are out shopping. We always have some stuff, but a lot more than usual these past two weeks. So unhealthy for all of us. It is no "treat" to feel sick and fat and unhealthy. I just have to remember that.
I had spent the afternoon baking with the kids. I had bought some raspberries so we made banana raspberry muffins, some with choc-chips (the kids had a couple for afternoon tea, I didn't have any); then raspberry creme brulee, planned for dessert tonight; and with all the leftover egg whites I made lots of little meringues with cream and raspberries on top. We had some for dessert last night then the rest were my contribution to the D&D supper.
I ate one when they came out of the oven, two for dessert after dinner, and I think another three over the course of the night. I don't usually have much sugar - I'm more of a salt and fat kind of girl - and by my sixth meringue I was feeling a bit nauseated. I also had a lot of twisties. I had a cup of chamomile tea which I thought helped.
My digestive system rebelled. It has been delicate since the stomach bug picked up in China a month ago, and I had my third relapse last night. At 2.30 am I was up with stomach cramps and diarrhoea. If it follows the path of the other relapses it will last 12-24 hours. My abdomen feels bloated and crampy, and I'm amazed that there is anything left in me but apparently there is.
I stayed in bed until 10 am, the kids have been playing computer games all morning. I don't think I will be taking them anywhere today; a sad and boring end to the school holidays.
On the up side, maybe my body didn't have time to absorb all those millions of calories before my body rejected them?...
The school holidays have been full of junk food. We had fast food twice, lollies at the movies twice, biscuits at home, treats when we are out shopping. We always have some stuff, but a lot more than usual these past two weeks. So unhealthy for all of us. It is no "treat" to feel sick and fat and unhealthy. I just have to remember that.
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