Good news!

Wednesday:

Awesome news! I don't have diabetes. In fact my numbers are better than last year, so I don't know what was going on with my finger-prick test that day. I walked into the test confident I was doing well and walked out sure I had diabetes. I was right the first time.

My doctor appointment wasn't until 11.30 so I spent the morning stressing. I mean, I "knew" I had diabetes but its a different thing getting it confirmed by the doctor. Then I walked to the clinic, luckily didn't have to wait long. But my doctor then referred to what we had talked about last appointment (different problem) and I brought up that I'd had the glucose test last week and I was sure I had diabetes. But she still went on about the other issue! I wanted to smack her. I was at the point of interrupting to demand my results when she finally got to it. Flicked through the numbers on her screen, yeah iron good, vitamin B fine etc etc oh cholesterol a bit high need to work on that ... no diabetes, glucose 8.2 mmol/L ...

What??

I craned around to look at her screen. 8.2. Last year I was 10.0. Normal is 7.8, diabetes is 11.1 mmol/L, pre-diabetes in-between. I was nearly down to normal!!

I felt like someone who braced so hard for a blow that when it didn't come they fall over forwards.

I had worked really hard when I was diagnosed with pre-diabetes last year, and although I slumped a bit back into my old ways I had still felt my blood glucose was better. I had been stunned by the (wrong) number I got from the finger-prick test on the day, but I convinced myself I must have slumped more than I thought. Because I am such a bad person. All my fault.

So yay.

Obviously what I have been doing for the past year, the good bits, were working. I hadn't lost any weight but I'd been pretty careful with my carbs until very recently.

I am not using this as an excuse to eat what I like and not exercise. I am not "cured". I still have pre-diabetes. I've had two big scares and I will continue with the plan to lose weight; eating more carefully and exercising regularly. I won't be quite so 100% stringent on how much carbohydrate with each meal, but still pretty careful.

Big relief though.