Monday, January 19, 2015

Work in progress


I did a bit better today, I think. I did a couple of productive things. I washed my CPAP. I took it away with us but only used it one night and then I hadn't unpacked it since we got home. So that is about a week without using it. It is all clean now with fresh water in the humidifier and set up, so I have no excuse not to use it tonight. Hopefully that will help with the tiredness. I fell asleep both yesterday and today, sitting up trying to read. Today with the kids playing a board game right at my feet.

I also used my Headspace meditation app this evening after dinner. Day Five. They are just 10 minute relaxation exercises. I am still very distracted but I won't get better if I don't practice.

I used my lovely massage chair, but today it hurt every muscle in my back. I am really stiff and sore and tense. Working on that.

Otherwise, food was a bit better today - and I resisted getting take away for lunch even though we were driving home at lunchtime! - but I didn't exercise.

I am ploughing through these books I need to read. I think two and a half yesterday. One and a half so far today, I'll read more tonight.

Still tired and sad and unmotivated. I'm a work in progress.


  1. You identified that you are sad and tired--that is self care and progress. You avoided fast food at lunch--that is self care and progress. You cleaned and prepared your CPAP for use-- that is self-care, and progress. Strive for progress, not perfection. One day (or one hour, or one minute) at a time. Feel good about what you *have* done, and let that help get you through the next hour. Be kind to yourself. Remind yourself that you are also grieving.

    1. Thanks, I'm trying to be gentle with myself.

  2. One day at a time my friend, you'll feel better in time.